New Day's Dawn
All truly great thoughts come to us at our worst time. The times when we have been challenged, ruined and staring into the abyss that has chased us for a lifetime. Mightily standing at the edge of the abyss and staring into its gaping maw knowing that down there is a monster staring right back. An hour behind the fleeting breath, is catching up. The thoughts you know that should be with you at the moment, the rational part. The part of you that stops and takes everything in before throwing yourself down the hole your past has created.
Did you ever attempt to put a broken mirror back together? Even if the pieces fit, you can’t make it whole again the way it was. But if you’re smart, you can still use the pieces to make other useful things. Maybe even something wonderful, like a mosaic. Well, the Earth is broke just like glass. And everyone’s meagrely attempting to put it back together like it was, but it’ll never come together in the same way.
I had spent a lot of time trying to get to this point. Trying to grab all the pieces of that mirror so that I could begin to rebuild it, all I had gotten so far was cut hands and blood loss.
I finally had her back. Well I had her body back. Whether she was there or not was a question that was still waiting to be answered. A sword suspended over my head. It had been hours since we had returned from the other place and hours since Catherine had cast me out of the medical bay. I had barely moved. I sat. I waited. I shut myself off from the world the way I had taught myself to. The only person I wanted was behind a few inches of metal and I couldn’t do anything about it. I had been too weak to save her, too weak to stop the madness before it had begun.
I had pondered on my power. Thinking about what it truly meant, what the mad man had said about how my power could be greater than it was. What else could it be used for? What did it mean? Where did it come from? You could say I meditated on the issue but I had thought meditation was meant to calm you down not leave you with more questions than answers.
I finally lifted my head; I was still in the corridor outside the medical bay a bottle of water had been left for me. Obviously I had either been very deep in thought or I had simply fallen asleep from exhaustion. Standing up I made a decision, I was going to do something I should have done a long time ago. A new day had come. A new Eli had arrived. Evolution had only just begun…